Not enough

There’s not enough of me to go around. I’m feeling pressed and stretched and sometimes a bit stomped on and snuffed out. And I feel like I don’t have a right to say it or complain about it.

Because I wanted this.

I want this.

But because I wanted this doesn’t make it any easier.

How can I homeschool, run a successful business, keep up a house, pray, feed the dog, pay the bills, be a good wife, buy groceries? How can I do this with four kids? The truth is that I can’t. And I’m not. Things are slipping. Things are getting lost and dropped and left behind and ignored. So just in case there’s ANY thoughts in anyone’s mind that I’m doing it all and doing it perfect or even well, know that I’m not. Not really. This is harder than I ever could have imagined.

5 thoughts on “Not enough

  1. Can you give yourself a two-month vacation from any one of those jobs? Then at the end of those two months, re-evaluate and possibly take a second vacation from a different job? Because “to everything, turn, turn, turn, there is a season, and a time for every purpose under heaven.” xo


    1. I don’t know. I don’t really know what I could let go. Jack has to be educated and if I took a break from school, he’d be totally bored all day instead of half the day. Business is fairly slow right now, but I just had a wedding and I’ve got another one coming up. Ughh…I just think I’m going to have to end up having to get someone to help me out once or twice a week.


  2. This is all still new! Give yourself some grace. It’s not going to be done perfect and it’s not going to be like it use to be. The main thing is to keep you all sane. 🙂 With time you’ll figure out what works and with some uh-oh’s you’ll figure out what doesn’t. You know I’m here if I can help, but you have to tell me.


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