Because we have him, because they were put in our path, because we said yes, because we took a HUGE leap of faith, because we trust that God is the author of our lives, because we might be just a little bit nuts….. because of those things and more, these two siblings, who could have grown up strangers, now get to ram tricycles into each other on my back patio.

Taking a few minutes

I have a few minutes to write. Phillip and I have to leave to shoot a wedding in less than an hour. The girls are back with their Mimi and Poppa for the night. Jack and Mikey are with their Nana and Granddad for the evening. So I’m in this house all by myself! It feels like forever since that has happened. So here’s just some ramblings about how things are going these days.

Tomorrow Mikey turns four! Four years ago we had no idea he was coming and now he’s here, plus two more! It’s insane. We’re having a smallish (okay, not really) gathering of friends and family tomorrow afternoon for his party. I hoped to have the Christmas stuff put away by his party, but I just haven’t had time so it’s still Christmastime at our house. I’m super excited about his cake. There will certainly be several pictures of it on here after tomorrow…whenever I get around to putting them on here. We’re going to get Mikey a two wheeled bike with training wheels. I have a feeling he’ll be riding it without training wheels in no time.

Jack and I started school this week, sort of. We did school Tuesday and Friday this week. Things went really well. I decided to try to “work box” organizational thing to do school. It’s pretty simple, really. You just get 8-12 or so file boxes, shoe boxes, plastic boxes, whatever and each night I (teacher/mom) put an assignment in each box along with instruction and supplies that he needs to complete it. The boxes are numbered and he needs to do them in numerical order during the day. Technically, he can take as long during the day to get it done as he wants to, but he can’t play video games until he’s totally done. And Jack really likes to just get school stuff done and out of the way so we finished by both days by around 11:00 or 12:00. This system causes me to have to be prepared for the next day and it keeps me from having to look through binders and find pencils and paper and whatnot while he waits. It’s all in his boxes ready to go. And I’ve also been putting little treats in some of the boxes too.

Things are going really good with Brittany. She’s a precious, affectionate little girl. She has been showing more of her strong will the last few days, but her “tantrums” or whatever they are are pretty mild compared to Mikey’s. But I think it’s tough getting a child who’s already 2 1/2 and being able to instantly feel like “this is my child.” I know it’s normal, but I still feel kind of guilty that I’m not instantly bonding with her yet. I know it will take time. I think she is very bonded with us already, but we’re just not quite there yet with her. I hope nobody thinks less of me for being honest about this. But I think there is this idea that when you adopt a child there’s this magical instant bond and love as soon as you see him/her and I just don’t think it’s always like that. It took us some time with Mikey too and he was a newborn. I know it will happen, but right now we’re trying to show her that we love her and that she’s our daughter in spite of not totally being there yet with our hearts. It’s a process of love more than an instant love. I guess you could use the phrase “fake it till you feel it.” Does that make sense?

Jade is a little easier in that respect. It’s difficult not to totally fall in love with a baby. She’s a super sweet, easy going baby. She hasn’t felt great the last few days so she’s been a little tougher, but I think she might be the most low maintenance of the four kids. I’m beginning to get the feel of her. You know how when you pick up someone else’s baby and they feel “weird” compared to your own. It’s like you get used to the way your kid feels in your arms. I feel that with Jade now. And I’m pretty sure Phillip does too. We’re beginning to see that she’s got a bit of a fiery temper and she throws her binky right at your face when she’s mad.

Well, it’s time for us to leave for the wedding. I wanted to try to get this published between gathering supplies and putting on my monkey suit. No proofreading has been done so give me a break if you find any typos.

Can I?

Can I just shoot straight with you for a moment? This is hard. I’m not saying I’d change a thing, not on your life. But this is really really hard. That is all for today.

Proof of girls.

Yes, it’s true. We have two little girls living in our house. And if I don’t believe it myself, all I have to do is walk into this room. I love how it has turned out. There will eventually be some more art on the wall that hasn’t come in yet.

We succumbed.

We are now the proud owners of a 2004 goldish bronzish Honda Odyssey. Yes, a minivan. We kind of had to. We looked at a Honda Pilot. It was cool. I wanted it. But it just really wouldn’t have worked out.

And here’s a short side trip about car buying. We went to the local Honda place with a $12,000 vehicle in mind. They didn’t have that vehicle and so we looked at a couple of others. By the time we left we were *almost* convinced to buy a vehicle that
A. was not the right vehicle for us at all
B. was WAY out of our budget.

But once we got home and got our heads back on straight we decided to stick with practical. And we got online and found a great deal. We had enough cash for a down payment because the van was such a great price. This allowed us to keep my Explorer for now until we can get it ready to sell and get what it’s actually worth instead of practically giving it away. And Phillip and I feel great about our purchase. We will hopefully be able to pay it off completely by the time the girls are adopted.

I think we’re going to totally trick it out with “Baby on Board” stickers and the family of Jesus fishes, and the stick figure family, including the pets, that so many clever folks put on the back of their vans. And maybe some spinners. That would be pretty sweet.

Oh and it’s got leather, power doors, and seat warmers. Don’t lust.