Big but.

I wanted this, but it’s so stinking hard!


I need God’s help, but I don’t take the time to pray.


I love them, but I say things that hurt their feelings.


I dreamed of this, but now sometimes I dream of… not this.


I want great things for them, but I often put myself first.


I am their mom, but I don’t want my identity to be found in them.


They are so little, but I expect them to do everything right.


They just want me to be present, but I roll my eyes and walk away.


They are gifts, but I sometimes see them as burdens.


They are forgiving, but I am condemning.


I can do this, but only if I’m willing to let myself go.


I have to let go of the big but.


I wanted this. I need God’s help. I love them. I dreamed of this. I want great things for them. I am their mom. They are so little. They just want me to be present. They are gifts. They are forgiving.


I can do this.


I must be willing to let myself go.

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