I wanted this, but it’s so stinking hard!
I need God’s help, but I don’t take the time to pray.
I love them, but I say things that hurt their feelings.
I dreamed of this, but now sometimes I dream of… not this.
I want great things for them, but I often put myself first.
I am their mom, but I don’t want my identity to be found in them.
They are so little, but I expect them to do everything right.
They just want me to be present, but I roll my eyes and walk away.
They are gifts, but I sometimes see them as burdens.
They are forgiving, but I am condemning.
I can do this, but only if I’m willing to let myself go.
I have to let go of the big but.
I wanted this. I need God’s help. I love them. I dreamed of this. I want great things for them. I am their mom. They are so little. They just want me to be present. They are gifts. They are forgiving.
I can do this.
I must be willing to let myself go.