So there’s this baby that we’ve known about since before she was born. Worried about. Prayed about. There’s this baby that we were asked to adopt. There’s this baby that we just couldn’t manage to take too. Because four kids is already a lot. She’s been a burden on my heart since the day I had to say “no.” This baby I’m talking about looks shockingly like this baby…
And then there’s this family. This amazing and kind family that we’ve been acquainted with for years. We go to the same church. We have a similar circle of friends and acquaintances. There’s this family who has wanted for a very long time to adopt a baby. They’ve had more disappointments and heartbreaks than I can imagine. They were almost ready to give up.
And now, much to my amazement, that little baby, who we just couldn’t take, has made her way to the arms of this sweet family. And the burden that I’ve felt since we said “no” has lifted and I am no longer worried about this baby. And all the while I was worrying and feeling guilty about this baby, God already had it all figured out. I worried that my kids would never know her. I worried that she would be alone in this world. I worried that someday she would be angry with us for saying “no.” That they would all be angry. And now this family, who we were only acquainted with before, will become lifelong friends, extended family even. How could they not?
For now she’s just the baby of some friends. She’s just a baby that we’ll get to hang out with and watch grow. She’s just a baby that my kids will play with. But someday, when their little minds can grasp it all, they will know the story of how their little sister came to live in the same town as them, go to the same church as them, and be surrounded by the same people who love them. Someday they will be told how the God who created them saw fit to give them the gift of friendship even though they will have different last names.
I stand in awe.
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? – Matthew 6:25-27
“You heavenly Father loves you. He has a plan for your life. He is in control. You are not forgotten.” This is what I will tell my kids. This is what our friends will tell this baby. This is what I’m telling you now.