Just. Obey.

All day I tell him, “Just obey.”

Just. Obey.

I know what he needs. I have his best interests at heart. All he needs to do is listen to my voice and obey. But, he can’t. He won’t. My voice gets clouded out by the other stuff in his head. He questions me. He doesn’t trust me. He doesn’t always think that I love him. He thinks he knows better. He argues for the sake of argument.

Oh, please. Just obey.

He has to have a plan. He has to know what is next. He has to have it laid out. He worries that something will go wrong. He has to be in control. He decides how the day will go before it’s begun.

Through tears…Oh, Buddy. Why are you this way? Please, please just obey me. I adore you. Please listen and obey. Can you even hear me at all?

Can you even hear me at all?

You should have no other gods before me. Just obey.

 

But, God, you don’t understand. My kids aren’t gods. I have to take care of them. They have to consume me, don’t they? I don’t worship Phillip. I don’t worship my stuff, God. I don’t do that.

 

Whatever you did not do for the least of these, you did not do for me. Obey.

 

But God, I’m doing the best I can. You don’t know how hard this is. You don’t know how much they frustrate and try me. How can I care for anybody else when I can barely care for the ones in my home?

 

Oh, please. Just obey.

 

But God, I’ve asked for things in your name and you’ve never answered. I’ve prayed for blessings that you never delivered. I deserve more than this. Do you even love me at all??

 

Whoever can be trusted with little can also be trusted with much.

 

But, God. You don’t really know how it is. You’re not even making sense.

 

Why are you this way? Please, please just obey me. I adore you.

 

I need to know your plans before I can do them. You lay it out for me in a way that makes sense, and if I think it’s doable, then I’ll do it! I will say ‘yes’ to you if you just prove to me that I won’t fail. The ball is in your court, not mine. I’m done.

 

Please. Just. Obey.

 

But something might go wrong.

 

Can you even hear me at all? Why can’t you trust me?

Please, just obey.

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